Magdalene Download On Grief

Joya 0:15

Hello, beautiful lights and souls. I want to share something that was a Magdalene download that I received this morning, and it's about grief that really kind of floored me because as I walk this path that I write about in grieving awake, the way eventually leads to moving enough stuff out of your system that you've learned to tune into, listen to, trust, and follow your intuition. What I mean by that is like those little nudges where you know you're doing something that isn't serving you anymore, or you just feel drained. Or maybe you don't even know what it is, but you just know there's something and you decide to say yes and trust what's revealed. And what often gets revealed is painful. And that's why it's grief, because you have to clear out that shadow, that wound, that fragmented part of ourselves that was never healed, so that that so that the space of healing can come in there instead. And so in this download this morning, I was looking up a couple of words because I was reading the Gospel of Mary Magdalene, and it was just the first beginning paragraph. Right. So I am reading from the Luminous Gospels, which I love this uh rendition of uh Mary Magdalene, the book of Mary Magdalene.

The Gospel Teaching On The Good

Joya 1:35

So let me find the page. It's dialogue one. Okay, so it begins like this, and this will all tie in with my download as well. And this is a really beautiful teaching, not just about grief, but about the origin of the word regret. Regret. We're gonna talk about how to end regret right now in this conversation. That's what's gonna happen here. This is this is what the intention is here. So it begins Tell us about matter. Will it survive or not? The savior answered, All of nature with its forms and creatures exist together and are interwoven with each other. They will be resolved back, however, to their own proper origin. For the compositions of matter return to the original roots of their nature. And then Peter said, Since you have explained everything to us, tell us one more thing. What is the sin of this world? And the Savior replied, Sin as such does not exist. You only bring it into manifestation when you act in ways that are adulterous in nature. So it requires you to act on the inner impulses, the inner thoughts, whatever it is that's hijacked you. It is for this very reason that the good, and the good is capitalized, that the good has come among you, pursuing its own essence within nature, in order to unite everything with its origin. Let me read that again. Sin as such does not exist. You only bring it into manifestation when you act in ways that are adulterous in nature. It is for this very reason that the good has come among you, pursuing its own essence within nature, in order to unite everything with its origin. What happens to matter? Matter, everything returns back to its origin. But the good, the energy of the good, has come into matter so that matter pursues itself. And this includes us in order to unite everything with its origin. So this energy, the good, this good energy, I feel this is like life force energy. It's what's urging you into expression. It's the same energy that makes the flowers bloom, that makes the redwood tree grow just as tall as it possibly can. There's so many beautiful ways that the good expresses itself. And it expresses itself through us as the urge to express ourselves. And I actually just wrote a few minutes ago, I'm going to share this quote that downloaded to me. It said that said, you know, you've done your inner work when your body doesn't ask for permission or it doesn't, and I mean permission to shut down, that clinching, that stopping, permission to do what you want. Permission comes in a lot of forms. It's not asking for permission, it's asking for expression. That's how we know when we've come into or we're getting into the true nature of our being, because we feel this urge to serve and to that, and for that service to come from authentic expression. And so this is so beautiful.

Aramaic Roots Of Sin And Peace

Joya 4:55

So when I was finished reading that, I looked up the word the good. I wanted to know the original Aramaic word of good because that's the language that Yeshua and Mary Magdalene spoke. The good is tabah in Aramaic, and it means your true natural harmonious oneness with God. Sin is unripe, mixing your true pure nature with the illusion of separation. That's what the definition of sin, which is uh bisha in Aramaic means. Sin is unripeness, mixing your true pure nature with the illusion of separation. It's wholeness. The word shlama, it's completedness, it's unbrokenness, it's cosmic harmony where all parts are in harmonious relationship with divine source. It's untainted alignment, healing words, where shlama alaqum, which means peace be with you, wholeness be with you. May you be restored to your natural state. It's to make something right. Yeshua said, Peace be with you. Acquire my peace within yourselves, be on guard so that no one deceives you. Shlama is to activate your inner state of divine wholeness and rest in the in the knowing the shlama, the peace, the wholeness, that you are protecting yourself from the illusions and allure of the physical world. Shlama and Taba dissolve the illusion of separation and sin entirely. And I came out of meditation, and here's what dropped in.

Grief Versus Regret And Why

Joya 6:30

Beloved daughter, you experienced a lifetime of grief. And if you examine grief, the energy itself is tied to love and regret. Regret is to feel sorry for something having passed, whether that's an event, a person, or as it's come to mean, a creation that became a miscreation. Grief is sadness and it can be bone deep to the marrow of your being. But when you are aligned with truth, when your grief, then your grief doesn't carry also the energy of regret. It can be a pure sadness for that which is no more, and to know that nothing in truth on the physical as it is as it appears, the energy, the soul continues on. Don't spend your life seeking peace. Spend your life learning to live it, to become it, so that you become that which you truly are, the living truth. And so you will die with no regret, no mourning. Okay. So then I went and looked up the words because I was feeling this feeling of what it meant. And I was like, I thought that was grief, but it felt like two different energies. And so when the word regret first entered the English in the 14th century, it was used to describe a deep outward expression of mourning, of grieving over someone who died. It moved inward to the psychological sorrow, the painful feeling of wishing a past action or choice could be undone. All right, I want to talk about that because that is what I call the second grief. And I even use the word regret. Originally, regret meant to express the grief. But then when grief became unexpressed, it turned inward into the feeling of wishing it could be different. And in my book, In Grieving Awake, I talk about this. And even when people are first in grief, this is the first thing I tell them is don't allow yourself to go into regret. Because if you do, it creates another kind of grief that becomes a black hole that sucks you in, and you're grieving for the impossible. You're actually grieving for an unreality. You're wishing that reality would have been different than it was. And then you can go into originally feeling the grief and the sadness, which is enough, and allowing it to express and going into that authentic expression of grief. And I just had a really profound grieving experience yesterday, as I really recently discovered and have stepped into the truth that I am a highly sensitive person, that I'm highly intuitive, that I have mystical insight and visions, and I always have since I was a little kid. But I also was very intellectual. And so I used to joke and call myself a skeptical mystic. But that skepticism, that hyper-rationalization of things is a trauma response. And I just learned that yesterday. How, in all of the therapy I've done and the coaching I've done, and the things I've read and the emotional intelligence work I've done and the mindfulness work I've done, how have I never heard that before? That hyper-rationalization is a trauma response. And I used to be so up in my head that I was disconnected from my body and I didn't feel my body. I didn't feel my body. I was all in my head. I also have a split definition in my human design, which makes that even more intense when there's trauma, that the body has its own language, and I didn't speak my body language. I had it just shut down. Maybe you relate, and that's why I'm sharing this. And this grief work, allowing it to come out, I expressed it. And grief doesn't have words. This energy of grief doesn't have words. And that's why I use that's why I'm a sound medicine woman. I use sound. Let's get out of drum and let's just let that sound out of your body. And that's what I did because when I realized that, the grief that I felt was so much because there's you're grieving, you're grieving a self that never existed. And you don't even know who that self is or was or could be. But I also know that it just makes this path I've taken a harder path. So that's why I'm doing this work, owning it, grieving awake. I'm calling

Trauma, Sensitivity, And Sound Release

Joya 11:35

myself a grief priestess because I take this work very seriously, and I don't, and it's also sacred, holy work. In the Gospel of Mary Magdalene, she tells us how to grieve. And I read it over and over this morning because it's so beautiful. It starts in dialogue two. His students grieved and mourned greatly, saying, How are we to go into the rest of the world proclaiming the good news about the Son of Humanity's realm? If they did not spare him, how will they ever leave us alone? Mary arose, then embracing them all, began to address them as her brothers and sisters, saying, Do not weep and grieve, nor let your hearts remain in doubt, for his grace will be with all of you, sustaining and protecting you. Rather, let us give praise to his greatness, which has prepared us so that we might become true human beings. So beautiful. We don't grieve like we doubt. And that's why that's what I've been experiencing in my grief. I don't grieve like I doubt. And thank God, my son, and his messages that he came through about doubt and grief and trusting myself in the beginning that I learned to trust myself. Regret, let it express out when you feel it coming up. Don't hold it in. It's a poison. It's a poison held in, it's medicine let out. And the original word of regret is to express mourning, to express grief. So I encourage you to just sound it out. You can be somewhere, even in your car. I know for me, I'll do it everywhere now. I'm it's just who I am. But in the beginning it wasn't. And my and using my voice was so uncomfortable and so awkward. And I would go in my car and do it. So go to your car, go somewhere private where you cannot be heard, where you can totally express yourself because it's so raw and naked, because it's oftentimes the first time we're really expressing ourselves from a place of vulnerability that we're not controlling. It's an uncontrolled expression that's coming out of the most raw part of us, which was our voice, right? That we're not, we're not drawing, we're not thinking, we're not in our head at all. We're really just sounding the body. Sounding the body. And we're doing the opposite now when we've been up in our head. When we've lived up in our head, it's been the thoughts, the meditations, the prayers, the mantras, and those are great. We need to control our mindset. That's so important. And we need to speak the language of the body, which isn't words, it's sound, it's sound. And to let it come out however it wants. And it can feel scary. It can almost start to feel like you get out of control. But what happens is you you enter into it and it rises like a volcano. It just gush. And then when the energy feels like it's expelling or it's expelled, there's like a feeling of completeness where now you just breathe and you breathe in peace and you breathe in calm and you cry. And this the rage, the vocal rage, the vocal expression, then moves to tears. It's a process that works up through the body, through the voice, to the tears, and then you cry. You cry. You cry from your heart, you cry. And it's really interesting that grief tears actually have a different chemistry that is shown to be full of neurochemicals and hormones that help you to calm your body. I think that's remarkable that our body does that for us. This amazing contraption that the soul is in. It's just remarkable. So when you feel regret, express it. Don't keep it in. Bring forth what is within you. And that is grief work. And if you feel like you want someone to witness you to be held while you have this experience and this expression, please visit my website and book a session with me at joyssnowski.com. Honored to sit with you and hold space with you. While you feel how you feel, and if you feel like you need guidance in the throat, in the opening of the body, in the reconnection of the mind to the body. Whoever said that quote, it's a longest journey from the 18 inches from the head to the heart. Wow, how true is that? Friends, I hope this was beautiful and helpful to you as it was to me. I'm going to share a practice that I did uh on a Zoom call this morning. And I encourage you to just drop in and listen and feel the words as we talk about these beautiful original teachings, these wisdom teachings. So, with that, enjoy this practice. Please like and subscribe, share anybody that you think would enjoy this conversation. And I'm so grateful for you. And I would also love to hear any comments that you have. You can get my email and everything at joyasesnowski.com or grievingawake.com if that's easier to remember or spell. All right, everybody. Be blessed. Shlama Alakum. Sit comfortably for a moment and allow yourself to be comfortable and settled in your body where you are. And take a deep breath in. Exhale. And just notice how clear you feel inside of yourself. And take another deep breath, and this time on the exhale, consciously drop your shoulders to release any physical tension you're carrying. And on the third breath, imagine entering your inner sanctuary of safety and order. Shift your attention away from your brain, your busy mind, and drop your awareness down into the center of your chest where your spiritual heart lives. And visualize a spark of pure unadulterated light. And this is your root, the center of your Christ consciousness. And imagine that in this place there is a doorway. And picture yourself standing on that doorway as a silent, neutral observer of the space within. And for the next minute here, just notice your thoughts drift past like clouds. And don't chase them, don't judge them.

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Just be a witness to the coming and the going of the thoughts.

Joya 19:26

And this is your inner neutral observer, the inner witness, the watcher within that can notice all thoughts that arise within your being.

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And

Guided Practice For Inner Wholeness

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think of the last stressful or intrusive thought that hooked you. And look at it and ask it, do you come from wholeness and peace? Or do you come from separation?

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And when you know that answer, refuse the mixture of allowing this polluted thought into your beautiful clear space within. So if it comes from separation or fear, recognize it as the illusion that it is, and don't argue with it, but say to the thought, You have no substance here. And gently guide your attention back into the light and the center within your heart. And then as you inhale, you could say, Lord Yeshua or Lord Jesus Christ. Have mercy on me. Remembering that mercy is like an anointing oil being poured over you that clears out all of those unwanted thoughts, all of those unwanted frequencies. And just keep breathing. And we're going to go into the practice of declaring yourself as love in the heart. And Inana is how you say, I am. And Rachma is unconscious.

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And to guard the thoughts, we say Inanura, which means lightmacma and I am. I am I'm divine, Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, protect me in peace.